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hEyx.. time flies.. o level result is coming out soon.. arh... i'm kind of fear tt i failed my eng... and tt's it.. tt will be the end of me.. hopefully i passed ba.. guess every1 else is as tense as me. but guess nth can be done at this moment of time too ba.. all i can sae is.. good luck guys! the road in front of us is still long. no matter what result u guys got.. accept it. and move on wif ur life.. i noe.. it's easier to be said than done. IF i really failed my eng.. i would really duno what to do... haix.. god bless me.. hope i get a blue slip... anyway.. this whole week.. i have been thinking of things. and it happened. tho it isn't exactly what i expect it to be. but it turn out roughly what i tot it is... haha.. well.. there's nth much i can do, i can onli sit here and hope for miracle ba.. haha.. tho miracle dun always happens.. and ya. pple.. i do belief tt pple with determination will surely succeed in what they wan to do. c0x.. i MADE it.. with determination.. i found my spect in the sea water -,- haha... which most of U tot i couldn't get it back anymore.. haha.. but well.. maybe it's my luck.. haha.. i didn't gif up... so pple.! dun gif up on things EASILY. hold on to it but not wif much hope.. do ur best.. and strive for it =) kk... i shall end here.. ciAox.. *stilling missing "u".. tho i noe "u" wont miss me..*
yox.. hAppy valentine day wor.. haha.. wah.. time past so fast... it's 14th feb le... haha.. it's also middle of lunar new yr le.. this yr new yr abt the same as before ba.. went back malaysia.. etc... nth's new.. haha.. and i got my pay le~ XD wEet... can buy things le.. =D but duno what to buy.. = haha.. heck.. todae went out the whole afternoon and evening.. duno shld i be happy or what.. =x haha... duno bah... i hope it's positive.. but it looks negative.. hAHax.. god knows.. aRhx.... forget it.. bad things always find me de.. hAhax... anyway.. this sat is having a gathering for ex 2e4. so guys! pls go if u can ok? let us enjoy together again before we get our results XD hope all of us manage to go to where we want to go ba... ;) ha.. for me... gif me a place in poly can le.. =x haha.. and thx kaiwen wor... l0lx.. u waste some $$ becox of me.. =x hahax.. i will remember 1.. ;) next time got chance i return u lar xD hehe.. haix.. duno got what to blog le.. =x haha... anyway.. gl JR! haha.. gl in kAna oWned~ =p l0lx... *jkjk... MUST owned them! lolx... nv owned them dun come find me!! XD hahax... sighx.. hao lar.. nth to blog le.. ciAox... *hOpEfuLly miSsiNg tHE riGht tReE bu guO iT sEeMs bU tAi lE guAn.. haha.. =x
yox.. wah.. so fast... i worked 12 days le... left last 2 days.. and it's new yr le.. hahax... and i haven buy anything f or new yr yet..? = dot dot dot.. =( hahax.. i got a bad feeling.. 2005 is not going to be a good yr for me =s ha.. hope i'm wrong lar.. but it seems true.. onli starting of the yr.. quite a few things happened le? duno bah.. and.. tian arh.. can u stop fooling me... spare me bah.. dun gif me so much hope at a moment.. but took them all way in the next moment.. haix.. duno. and i guess some things are already chen le ding ju le... won't change le.. sighx. "u" are right.. but sighx. tt's me? haix.. things ard me are changing everyday.. and is still changing.. i dun wan to lose u guys.. u guys are one big good bunch of frens.. but there's just sth holding me back.. i duno what.. there seems to be sth tt make me feel blue each day.. and it's a dead knot.. but i guess.. there's onli one person who can loose it.. you noe who you are.. but i doubt you noe. and well.. ur mind is thinking of other things. i guess.. shld be him ba...? haix.. it's like.. i'm feeling what u are going thru too.. onli thing which is diff is that.. u haf the higher chance to get ur tree... but me..? i'll be the one walking out of the forest, *alone.. and i will not be searching for other trees.. cox i'm the dumb and stubborn 1... who is thinking of holding on to a tree who won't gif me another chance.. ha.. maybe time will help me bah.. or.. by heaven will.. the tree will fall in front of me.. and then it might help me to forget abt the wrong tree i saw....... but.. haix. nvm... no mood to continue le... -.- siGhx.. think i end here le bah... *for pple who dun understand what i'm toking abt.. it's perfectly normal =x* hAix.. *adiyos.. *miSsiNg dA wRoNg tReE wHo by now shld haf found it's own tree....* but no matter what... take care? be cautious.. treasure it.... *a forced face for u... " ;) " .
yox~ ha.. i'm here to blog again XD so sianx.. hahax.. haix? todae go NBSS see pple lose siah? lolx =p hahax... nv train lar.. orbi lor? haha.. always ask you go play dun wan.. see lar. HAI WO RUST ALSo. hahax.. even serve also cannot make it -.- haha.. but guess u wun hui xin de? l0lx. TRAIN hard lar! hAHax... i wan go CCHS see u play de l0lx! anyway.. this 2 days.. sian lar.. haha.. keep thinking of things which shouldn't think of -.- ha.. it's really hard to sae let go then let go ba.. but wat to do.. haha.. and i'm juz so stupid -.- ha.. thinking of it juz make me feel sour -.- haha.. really sour to the limit.. and ha... nan yi xing rong de tong ba.... = ha.. nvm.. tian zhu ding de.. wat can i do.. god just like to fool me.. at one moment give me so much hope.. at the other moment.. just shatter it all like nobody business.. sighx.. *ming ku lar... haha... duno ba.. maybe "u" are not the one for me ba.. and.. ha.. "u're my tree.. but my tree found her tree.. =" zzzzz... ha.. this sounds familiar? ha.. haix. duno lar. guo yi tian suan yi tian ba. anyway.. nth much to blog le.. hope i finish my work soon! can get pay XD haha.. $$$$$.. kk... shall stop here... *ciAox.. *miSsiNg tHe wrong tree........ * =( **siGhx**
y0x.. wow.. it's been so long since i last update my blog.. hahax.. fine.. i shall blog again now.. c0x i got nth to do.. i'm sick of all those games.. and i dun haf the mood to play them. haix.. hax.. nvmx.. these few months haf been a busy, slacking, happy, sad, etc. So many things happened! but i believe. these things happen for some freaking reason. ha.. gd pple died so early.. regreting for slacking but it's too late again.. why do pple always regret onli after things haf been done. but anyway. what's done is done. what i can do now is pray? hope? ha.. but my hopes aren't very high.. let me get into a poly and i'm satisfied. really... haix. i dun wan to retake o.. it isn't a great thing to do so.. anyway.. recently i find that i changed. pple ard me changed too.. sighx. change for the better? or worsen.. i duno.. guess some change for the better.. some.............. maybe "you" are rite.. i did it too harshly.. but even if i will regret. i'll juz live wif it. cox i noe.. what's urs will eventually be urs no matters what happen. if she's fated to remain as frens. solutions will automatically find their way in between us.. but i doubt so. k.. i admit.. i do really tot tt i sae it out in " qi tou shang " and i noe.. i'm in the wrong at 1st. but come on. i already do things i shld do.. AND those words hurts me deep in and tt's why i'm so dAMN fuking angry. but well.. who will understand how i feel? i guess no1 does. unless.. this fren of my know abt what's going on.. maybe he will clarify things out. but well.. no point. the trust isn't there anymore. the kind of feeling isn't there anymore too. too think tt all these yrs' friendship onli WORTH tt much... dunno lar.. anyway life still goes on no matter what happen.. and i haf been thinking for quite some time. shld i.. or shld i not.. i kind of face the same prob as "you" face.. and i guess i noe what's the choice will be.. ha.. and i noe i'll not be feeling gd for sure.. but baka is rite... love one person, doesn't mean that you really must haf tt person's love in return. baka.. thx.. u do sounds LOGICALLY sometime =p haha.. and i mean really SOMEtime onli ;p haix.. anyway.. guess i'll juz make a decision.. maybe "you" will get to read this entry.. maybe not? god knows.. anyway... tt doesn't matter anymore i think.. ur heart is somewhere else le.. it's with someone else.. someone good and better i'm sure. i hope he can give u the happiness and things which u wanted in him. i truly wish u and him good luck? ha... and most of all.. of c0x.. i'm sure we're still gd frens rite! hahax... i'm ur guardian angel for life =D unless u dun wan me =( kEkex... i kind of hope u will get to read this? but well.. i leave this to fate.. maybe some day.. u're bored and "u" MIGHT came in here and read on this.. but i doubt the chances are high.. l0lx.. anyway.. it's a long entry after so long... k.. i shall end here.. i'll try to blog more oftenly. ciAox... *wishing "u" all the best in everything u do.. and if "u" get to see these.. remember.. sarang heyo no matter what. adiyos.
=D it's jUz a pLaCe whErE i g0t t0 wRitE mY "jouRnaL" ? aNd iT's mY 1St tiMe d0iNg a bLoG bY mYseLf qiNg dUo dUo zHi jiAo iF tHeRe's aNytHiNg u fiNd iT n0t gD en0uGh ;) fEeL fReE t0 c0mMeNt oN iT d=)
