y0x.. wow.. it's been so long since i last update my blog.. hahax.. fine.. i shall blog again now.. c0x i got nth to do.. i'm sick of all those games.. and i dun haf the mood to play them. haix.. hax.. nvmx.. these few months haf been a busy, slacking, happy, sad, etc. So many things happened! but i believe. these things happen for some freaking reason. ha.. gd pple died so early.. regreting for slacking but it's too late again.. why do pple always regret onli after things haf been done. but anyway. what's done is done. what i can do now is pray? hope? ha.. but my hopes aren't very high.. let me get into a poly and i'm satisfied. really... haix. i dun wan to retake o.. it isn't a great thing to do so.. anyway.. recently i find that i changed. pple ard me changed too.. sighx. change for the better? or worsen.. i duno.. guess some change for the better.. some.............. maybe "you" are rite.. i did it too harshly.. but even if i will regret. i'll juz live wif it. cox i noe.. what's urs will eventually be urs no matters what happen. if she's fated to remain as frens. solutions will automatically find their way in between us.. but i doubt so. k.. i admit.. i do really tot tt i sae it out in " qi tou shang " and i noe.. i'm in the wrong at 1st. but come on. i already do things i shld do.. AND those words hurts me deep in and tt's why i'm so dAMN fuking angry. but well.. who will understand how i feel? i guess no1 does. unless.. this fren of my know abt what's going on.. maybe he will clarify things out. but well.. no point. the trust isn't there anymore. the kind of feeling isn't there anymore too. too think tt all these yrs' friendship onli WORTH tt much... dunno lar.. anyway life still goes on no matter what happen.. and i haf been thinking for quite some time. shld i.. or shld i not.. i kind of face the same prob as "you" face.. and i guess i noe what's the choice will be.. ha.. and i noe i'll not be feeling gd for sure.. but baka is rite... love one person, doesn't mean that you really must haf tt person's love in return. baka.. thx.. u do sounds LOGICALLY sometime =p haha.. and i mean really SOMEtime onli ;p haix.. anyway.. guess i'll juz make a decision.. maybe "you" will get to read this entry.. maybe not? god knows.. anyway... tt doesn't matter anymore i think.. ur heart is somewhere else le.. it's with someone else.. someone good and better i'm sure. i hope he can give u the happiness and things which u wanted in him. i truly wish u and him good luck? ha... and most of all.. of c0x.. i'm sure we're still gd frens rite! hahax... i'm ur guardian angel for life =D unless u dun wan me =( kEkex... i kind of hope u will get to read this? but well.. i leave this to fate.. maybe some day.. u're bored and "u" MIGHT came in here and read on this.. but i doubt the chances are high.. l0lx.. anyway.. it's a long entry after so long... k.. i shall end here.. i'll try to blog more oftenly. ciAox... *wishing "u" all the best in everything u do.. and if "u" get to see these.. remember.. sarang heyo no matter what. adiyos.
