y0z.. hihix.. =x it's been a month plus i update again.. hehex.. so sorry.. din haf the time and mood to update.. ermmm.. this month been a busy month.. or rather i would sae.. stressful =| i juz finish all my papers for SA1 except for a last paper on fridae.. >.< time flies.. in this 1 month.. i would describe my life as rather calm.. nth much happen.. juz normal daily routine... sch.. lessons.. CCAs... home sweet home.. den repeat again the next day.. nth different each dayx.. -,- kind of find life boring.. useless... tho i got games to play.. but.. tt's juz so lifeless.. dun u agree? all u noe is game and game and game.. sighx.. =\ when will i wake up... it's onli 2 weeks away frm O lvl chinese.. CHINESE............ yeah.. chinese... i'm wondering how could i pull up my sock back to my outstanding standard i got in the past.. not really tt superb.. but.. at least an A1... haix.. i do regret some things.. but.. tt's wat i choosed to do.. mind over body matter.. sighx.. it's really hard to go against ur mind at times.. serious.. =| if i could do tt.. i wun be in this state now.. haix.. -,- sad.. how i wish i could pass my exams with flying colours.. not tt i dun wan to haf gd results.. but it's juz.. "laziness" which get all over me when i wan to study.. and it's like.. whenever i'm studying.. i would fall asleep.. it's onli when i'm concentrating.. i would fall asleep.. wat is this! what's the matter wif me? sighx.. i hope i would chagne for the better.. but actions speaks louder than words.. what u said but u cant probably do it is juz some crapx... CRAPx.... zZzzzZz.... and now not onli studies is bothering me.. many other mattter's bothering me... things keep appearing in my mind.... whyx... why is life so sucky at times.. how i wish i could go back to my childhood time.. so carefree... no stress no problems.. nth... ya.. i would rather haf nth like the freedom now than to haf lots of problem... financial.. etc.. it's really miserable without having cash wif u... it's like.. nth u can do.. no cash = nth.. nth... zZzzzZz... haix.. mmmm.... nVmx... guess i haf burp outx all the craps in me for this month... i feel much better now... i noe there's up and down in our lifes.. haix.. things r meant to happen.. lesson r meant to be learnt.. mistakes r meant to be corrected.. perhaps... alot of things r fated to be in this way ba... if a thing is urs.. it would always be.. wat if it's not.. it will nv be... true... sum things r juz tt unfair... thsi world is nv fair.. nv... nv ever.... gtg now... update again next month.. or maybe soon..... *ciAox...  ¶ 5/19/2004 11:34:00 AM