y0z.. hihix.. so fast 1 month++ past again le.. sighx.. =x din really enjoy my June holidays tho.. it's like no diff from normal sch days.. but juz.. it's even worse than sch days sumtime.. -,- during the holiday.. i went for my track camp.. was a wonderful 1.. haha.. really enjoyed myself.. our bonding between the trackers really improve.. hahax.. nationals is coming soon.. juz this month.. i guess still got 2 weeks... but 2 weeks is juz so short.. "yi zhuan yan" 2 weeks will past le.. sighx.. but it's like.. i'm still so lan as before.. no improvement.. i hate myself.. why am i always so lazy.. if not cox of my laziness.. i guess i could do alot of things.. sighx.. but juz... wat to do... laziness always win me.. i'm juz so lazy.. juz so.. slack.. sae 1 thing do another 1.. sighx.. i hate myself siahx... i wanted to study... but.. when it come to work.. i always dun do it.. wat is this... sighx... guess.. i cant keep my promise.. =x and my bets... awwWwWww.... =x haix.. even these cant motivate me.. what else can... what am i!! i'm sorry... really sorry... alot of things i really cant do it.. i felt so useless all of a sudden.. =x where's my determination... where's my spirit... even if not for study.. wat abt track... what am i really doing nowadays... been really busy after sch reopen.. haix.. how i wish i got someone who really can stand me... =x i noe my mum meant gd for me when she forbid me from playing.. but i'll juz sae back to her.. "ya lar" , "han na" watever... *juz cant help it.. =x den sometimes she really got piss off.. =x *mAmA~ sorry... =| but juz cant help it... gRrRrR...~ very "bu siao" rite.. i noe... sighx.. now i'm thinking.. wat can i do siahx... it's like.. there's nth i'm gd in now... nth.. and i wan to go jc... whereas my result... sighx... i could get 20 i laugh le... haix... even 20 cant get.. how to get into jc... i'm daydreaming.. -,- my chinese sux now... eng is juz border line... maths drop like hell... sci is still so bloody lan... humans is still the same... so lan.. haix.. so fan...... why so fan..~~ why the rest not fan... why... how can i manage my time.. and how to make sure i do it... HOW.......................................... any1 can tell me... -,-"" haix... and.. i'm really confuse now... whether shld i........ sighx. suan le.. dun sae le... feeling so depress now... feeling so useless.. when will i really wake up... WHEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghx....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ sighx.. think i crap too much le... next time den write ba... btw.. sorry for not writing for 1 month lar.. *c0z no mood to blog.. so.. yupx.. pardon me for tt... i try to keep my promises... if it's beyond my ability... =x sighx.. kk.. ciAox...  ¶ 7/01/2004 08:35:00 PM (0) comments